Right ive read through alll 17 pages, managed to get to the part where i can add a reply lol !
Anyway from the age of 12 i noticed something different about myself, i was sat on the school palyingfield whilst listening to the PE teacher going on about something to do witht the long jump, anyway, i was looking at the lad infront of me and thinking, hes quite hot really and i thought nothing of it. Then over the next few weeks other people both male and female started giving me ideas in my head.
At highschool, my friends were girls, thats just the way its always been, i seem to identify better with the girls to be honnest, i do have male friends and there just as much fun as the girls. One thing my friends really like about me ( especially the girls) is that i can go on shopping trips with them and not get board or fed up. thats because i have a sister and 3 female cousins that i spent a lot of time with when i was little so understandably i never got to do what i wanted, i always had to do what the majority wanted ie 4 girls haha so yeas ill admit that i do know the dance moves to most of stpes and spice girls songs (damn us for being 90's children)
Id been in a relationship with a guy for the best part of two years, he was a very possessive person who really made me do things that i didnt want to but because i was younger and at the time i loved him i so wanted to stay with him. since then my relationships have never really been the same, what can i say he really did mess me up as a person. Before that i had had a relationship with a girl from Highschool, she was a good friend, although weve stayed friends after our two year relationship, its not been the same between us.
Ive tried the gay and the straight thing, and to be honnest at this moment in time im happy just being me and if something comes my way from either direction i would be happy, im not actively looking for a relationship at this momnet because i want to keep an open mind, i count my self at 18 as having more than my fair share of experience, ill admit that apparently people think that i am a bit camp, and some people that i have met , when im not at the mini meet constantly go on about "how camp can bambi be ?!" and thus discuss this matter over and over. althoug, im not overly bothered about it id just like if people have a problem with me then they say it to me and not behind my back,
the best bit of advice i can give is that you are who you are and you cant really change that. people will always have problems whith who you are and what you believe thats human nature everyone has their own views and opinions. All you can do is hold your head up and go " yeah point being?"
with the view on children, im going to be a primary teacher so i get all the surragate children ill ever need ( no naughty comments !) but at some point i do want children of my own that i do know and i have known that for a very long time since i was little.
anyway, Mini mad Craig , what ever you decided be you mate
and you've all the time in the world to find out what you want..
and if people hadn't guessed by this point im BI
SO yeah point being?
Bamby
